
But I mean (partly), why am I here on this site? What led me here?
I'm here because of a few experiences I've had, and after researching online found nde's/ste's which has been instrumental in helping to explain what I have been through.
What makes me confused though is, why me? Why did I have these experiences? What am I supposed to do with it? Why do others seemingly not go through these experiences? Are they not listening? Do they need to have their heart and mind open before they can receive it?

I worry about my family and friends (well, everyone, really) because they seem so far from our ultimate purpose... it seems so easy to me (love and forgiveness), but in all honesty, I would not have gotten it if it weren't for the experiences I had.. so why was I allowed to have them? Or maybe others have had them as well, and dismiss it? Or explain it away?
I feel isolated and want to tell others, but... they don't understand. I don't know what I'm supposed to do other than "love and forgive"..