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Hello from Italy

Posted: Tue May 31, 2016 2:05 am
by Giulia
Hello, Dear Friends, and thanks for creating this cosy community!

My name is Giulia, I live in Italy, but my mom is English and her dad was Czech. I am married to a wonderful man who has spent his life working as a physician and psychotherapist and has only just retired. We have an 18 year old son. I met my husband because he happens to specialise in studying apparently unexplainable phenomena, in his free time, in his capacity as a neurophysiologist, and since age nine (I am 54 now) I have always sort of “suffered” from unexplainable phenomena, such as déjà vus and sleep paralysis. In those days, these experiences were either dismissed as fantasy or regarded as some kind of illness. It was only when I started reading about out-of-the-body experiences in my late 20s that I realised that what happened to me may be the sign that there is actually more than this physical world to experience.

I had always been attracted by the idea that, even in our everyday life, we may experience more than what is technically “physical”, which is why I started reading the Italian translation of Dr. Moody’s book Life after Life in my teens, as soon as Readers’ Digest started making chapters available in Italian.

As soon as I came across Bob Monroe’s book on his own OBEs, which had started in his 50s, I realised that my disturbing sleep paralyses may not be an illness but an opportunity to obtain personal evidence that we are spiritual beings. What I discovered was that my mind could wake up while my body was asleep, and that this could release my awareness from the strictly physical environment I had been taught I belonged to and travel across different dimensions, such as where the granddad I had never met (because he had died from cancer four years before my birth) could meet me.

Even though I never played around with what I now realised might be a gift, my earliest experiences were not all what you would call enjoyable. With my mind wide awake, and my critical/logical filters in place, it took some time before I could rid myself of my taboos. I will never forget the time when, having learnt how to willingly have out-of-the-body experiences, I was about to take off from my body which was lying asleep in bed, when I “heard” IT moaning something like «Please don’t go. Please stay and cry with me!» What a spooky experience!!! I thought I had gone crazy and might have a split personality. But my willpower got the better of my fears, and after a whole week spent sleeping with my bedroom light on, I realised what must have happened. I was a rather lonely young woman in those days, living 40 km away from my job and 800 km away from my family: a part of me was sad and depressed, and did not see a purpose in this physical life unless I could prove that a bigger dimension existed. I realised that, despite the “gift”, my body was equipped to “pretend” that I belonged to IT, and my standard education certainly did not help, even though I had never really been what you could call narrow-minded.

To make a long story short, even though those first astral-travel attempts were unsettling, I was blessed with a somewhat inner knowing that enabled me to recognise self-sabotaging experience and move on. In those days I was single and could devote my weekends to practicing and keeping a diary, despite the drawback of not having the Internet or a way of sharing my experiences with other people without sounding crazy.

Over these last 25 years I have come to the conclusion that this physical life is a temporary dream, a temporary illusion that we are separate from each other and that physical death is the end. I also feel that our spirit must have at some point made the decision to accept the illusion, but I am not sure I will ever understand the mystery of pain and grief until I finally re-awaken from this dream, which is nonetheless filled with joyful memories of Christmas and other happy events. I might just add that the “dream” became a real nightmare when my dad died two years ago on 5 June, but the joy of being able to meet with him in his new HOME is what keeps me going right now.

I now look forward to reading about other people’s experiences in what I used to regard as some sort of No-Man’s-Land. Maybe No-Man’s-Land is the place where we pretend to be in order to find out that we are all in this together (I now realise it was no coincidence I wrote my bachelor degree thesis on English IWW poetry). Maybe the unofficial story about the British and German soldiers crossing the Western Front around Christmas 1914 to exchange Christmas greetings is just a story, but even in that case, I feel the story is telling us that we do not truly hate each other, and that No-Man’s-Land is the place where we remember who we really are.

Looking forward to getting to know you all.


Re: Hello from Italy

Posted: Tue May 31, 2016 2:53 am
by mbee
Ciao Giulia! (sorry I do not speak italian:) (spanish though)

I relate very much to your story, and share very similar experiences ... I think that in the same way the apparent "negativeness" of these memories triggered in you a search for deeper meaning, perhaps on a larger scale pain and suffering in the world are powerful tools for humanity to look deeper and evolve to higher states of consciousness....this is what I believe. So what may seems terrible in the moment, has a ripple effect of tremendous growth...

Re: Hello from Italy

Posted: Tue May 31, 2016 4:09 am
by Giulia
Ciao, mbee! I am very pleased to meet you.

I quite agree about the tremendous and powerfully positive ripple effect that painful or unsettling situations can have in our life in the long-term.

I look forward to getting to know more about you too.


Re: Hello from Italy

Posted: Tue May 31, 2016 8:03 pm
by ano1
Welcome, Giulia,
You sound like a delight.

Re: Hello from Italy

Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2016 1:11 am
by Giulia
That's very sweet of you. Hoping to get to know more about you too!

Re: Hello from Italy

Posted: Sat Mar 18, 2017 4:46 pm
by MysterySeeker
Hi Giulia,

It was good to read your personal story about what brought you to this forum :).